Do not feel as though you are alone. There are help lines you can call where you can speak to someone about how you feel. Reach out to a friend. Go for a drive, walk, watch a movie, read or find some other activity that will make you feel better. You are a great person and you deserve the best.
I would like to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a safe holiday period. Please do not drink and drive and remember to look after yourself.